the look to letting you goi hope i ruined
like a smudge
i like reminding you
of the things
i am sure you proudly
ache my heart,
when i try
bookmarked my skin
where you last
so that i may
open the pages
and read us
when i feel a little
all i want is to look across
a span of space-
a floor, a bed,
the breath between
and see another
holding me like light
within warm eyes.
it is likely
we will not make it
through the night;
in this case,
i hope that,
with my last,
i learn to love
dissolutionfloating dust catches sunlight
streaming in from the window
where they used to laugh.
it brings in the breeze
and lets out their ghosts.
cold words flow freely
and let new air in.
it's not as if it was sudden;
a deterioration of even the strongest structure
still forms cracks over time.
(it's not about the building
it's the dedication to keep it standing)
but when someone tells you that they don't love you
that there's nothing left inside
it hits you just as sudden
as a speeding car.
the language of our Soul
if our Mind
didn´t constantly drown it
Last DawnI´ll never see the next sunrise
never feel again how moonlight floods my skin
see how light refracts sparkling in dewdrops,
and illuminates the shadow of eternal silence at the cemetery,
for a couple of seconds
listen, in awestruck quietness,
to the chant of the birds in the earliness of morning
lie in the green grass and think about nothing
and fly towards the open skies
marvel at the unreal blue sky,
in blistering midday heat
walk across the harvested cornfields
in cool november mists
catch the last leaf of this year
feel the first snowflakes tickle my tongue,
and let the ice flowers sparkle
stand on t
The Ice Princessperfect by nature,
rulebreaker number one,
queen of broken hearts,
scientist´s mind and angel´s body,
the ice princess - entering the stage in deathly pale grace
her eyes illuminating the world
her hands dictating the rhythm of the dance
but her lips
bursting with unspoken words
she´s wearing glowing steel, roses and diamonds
robing herself in self-indulgent coolness
in brilliant cynicism
in the most beautiful facade
and in secrets which will never see
Fragments of You and Me
fell in love with a stranger´s laugh
in the kitchen, Monday afternoon
He forgot his front door keys here and
concluded he had to stay for a while, so sorry
I said, if I find it I´ll throw it in the lake
locked us in the paradise garden
painted flowers on my body
and let the starlight breathe life into them
counted the times my heart skipped a beat when you called my name
stopped counting when my brain didn´t work anymore
- why did my heart still work
said you´d buy me a respirator
so you can kiss me until we can´t breathe anymore
and don´t have to fear you´d kill me
ChainedI ran away for the first time
because my courage had been awakened
and had said to myself
After you caught me,
you put your princess
back in your castle,
locked your little canary
in the crystal cage again,
smiled and kissed me
and said I was a good girl
My courage was still breathing
as I screamed
After you let me bleed
and replaced my gypsy blood with blue one,
erected three stone walls, dug three moats
and constructed three labyrinths surrounding us,
broke my phoenix wings
and counted the bones to be sure not one was left intact,
added some bars of the cage, made of steel, stone and diamond
and beset with heated nails,
Ten Crossed-Out Letters And Unspoken ConfessionsYou asked me
why I said you were better for me
than I am for you
There are moments I´m just so tempted to
caress your cheek
the pure gesture of consolation
the simple sign that I´ll always be by your side
There are moments I just want to
put my head on your shoulder
when I´m desperate and frustrated
and need someone to be always by my side
There are moments I just put my hand
on the empty side of my bed
closing my eyes
and fooling myself
you´d be there
There are moments I just ask myself
if our paths have crossed for a reason
and what´s this reason
and if life just wants to torture me
and if God´s just a sadist
It´s an explanation about a million words
and a million smiles
and one heart telling it´s the only truth
But it´s a refutation about
a billion reasons to forget it
proving it´s against all rationality
It´s about a distance
of 300 miles
or 10 years
or the speed of electrons
never go away
forever, i'll say,
never go away,
cos my life's
better with you in it.
i promise, nothing's a better fit.
baby, never go away,
please, oh please, won't you stay?
'cos i know if we're together
it'll always be okay.
for every pot of gold, i'll find the leprachaun that put it there.
if i ever wrote a song it'd be about you, i swear,
and if we ever get separated, i'll find you from anywhere;
i'll do whatever it takes, honestly, i really don't even care.
i told you the other day, how easy you make my heart tear,
but i also said it's worth it, 'cos you're oh-so extremely rare.
like a four-leaf clover found in a patch just to compar
Heart Runs Dryno tears left to cry
When your heart runs dry
It withers and cracks
From your emotional lack
as time passes day to day
will my heart be healed
or just blown away
like dust in the wind
like your feelings for me
you built me up
you tore me down
forget me here
just let me drown
hopes and dreams are gone today
my heavy debts are left to pay
shattered pieces in my hand
throw them down into the sand
will I ever be whole again
will I always be tossed into the wind
will I always be dry and calloused within
will I ever know love's warmth again
will my broken heart ever mend
you built me up
you tore me down
forget me here
Here It Goes AgainOh boy.
Love's a rollercoaster.
To my dismay, you're sitting next to me.
I'm strapped in too tightly.
We're going up the hill, and then
It's amazing and thrilling and breathtaking.
We turn sharply and I'm thrown into you.
Didn't see that coming?
There's another drop coming up.
"Here it goes again."
Three wishesWhat would your three wishes be?&
If you had three wishes
What would those wishes be?
Perhaps to live forever
You know, immortality?
Or how about a pair of wings
To lift you to the sky?
Or maybe meet your Prince Charming
A dashing, handsom guy?
Or what about telepathy
Secret access to the mind?
Read the thoughts of others
Or control them from inside?
What about world wide peace
To protect the Earth from war?
Or save the lives of innocent
From those who break the law?
Then there's also time travel
Why not revisit your time line?
Or maybe even time control
Now thats what I call "killing time!"
If you had three wishes
Week 7-Shelves of TreasureMy fingers run across the rows of books that line my shelves
Some new and untouched
But most read and re-read with an air of dignified age
Large, small, each hold a special place in my heart
Each book a new universe
Each chapter a new adventure
Each page a new treasure
Each character a new friend
Losing myself in those pages
Leaving this reality behind
And embracing a new one
The troubles of that far far away land become my own
While my own fade away into oblivion
Silly fantasies, unreal dreams, but passionate all the same
Sailing across the seven seas
Chasing big dreams
Finding love in unexpected ways
Fighting to fulfill a
Blue Ocean. I jumped down in a sea of hope&
That drowned in the ocean waves.
I might as well swallow in the blue water and drown.
I'm not asking for a perfect life,
I just want a little happiness.
SearchingWhat is the purpose?
Life is a crescendo,
eventually to decrease into nothing.
Why do we bother?
We are simply an hourglass,
We always search,
for a purpose,
something larger than our small life.
Some never stop searching,
some give up,
some find a seemingly fulfilling purpose,
but in the end,
we are all still searching.
GravitySometimes I wish the Earth had no gravity
For then maybe I could take you with me
We could float above the stars
And then the world would seem like ours
For if the truths in life were to become false
The unthinkable could become impulse
You could finally see the real me
And together we could finally be
But for now this is my reality
mazeA world with the color he had left behind,:thumb195490527: :thumb179373522:
The roots of sanity that escaped from his mind,
Faith towers above him like the legend it is,
As the murmer of souls whisper to him,
He is given no strength,
No love, and no fate,
To continue the journey through a blind maze,
And find his way out of a constant daze.
Love and reality crash in his mind,
And he remembers the world that he left behind,
This world seems so distant, dying and fake,
But it's the last image that has given him faith,
This is his hope, his destiny to find,
The hidden remains of his slightly sane mind.
Confession of a torn up soulConfession of a torn up soul&
Nineteen years of crappy lies
Wear a mask just to disguise
Trust's a thing I never knew
All mistakes I can't undo
Friends I changed like dirty pants
Disappointment in the end
Got betrayed and left alone
I'm the one they all disown
Fear and fury, hate, distrust
Traits of mine, they cause disgust
Living in my personal hell
All the secrets I can't tell
Many wounds, they'll never heal
Wounds I'm trying to conceal
Smiling face and crying heart
Little world, it falls apart
People wanna change my mind
Weakness they are trying to find
Honestly, I'm sick of them
Nervous wreck is what I am
A Poem For My FriendYou packed your bags without a word
Nothing said, nothing heard
Although it's only been a day
You've never felt so far away
One plus one still equals two
And I know I still belong with you
I wish you would just tell me why
But instead, you let me cry
I'll I need is peace of mind
Slow down a second, press rewind
Call me now and speak words true
Tell me what I have to do
I know not what I did wrong
But it makes the hours long
Waiting for you, oh my love
Praying to my God above
Please my dear, explain to me
What did I miss? What didn't I see?
I swear that I can make this right
At least I can try with all of my might
This is w
Tomorrowanother year has ended
another year to go
a year to take and learn from
a year to stand and grow
standing on the precipice
of past and future days
the past is clear, though gone
the future is a haze
choices lie before us
defining who we are
waiting for the time to come
to claim our golden star
create a brighter world
for ourselves, and those around us
a future rose, unfurled
pluck the flower, smell its scent
look to towards the dawn
resolve to be a knight
and not a lowly pawn
I create my future
my past is done and gone
judge me if you will
my star has not yet shone
but when my star has risen